CARING - HURTS

These two words are the best combination.

Caring - Hurts.....

The more you care about others, you'll get hurt easily..

This happened to me, I know it, I knew the feeling, I have had hurt before, hurt so badly because of my decision that I have made, that I choose to care for others, get into their problem, tried to fix it.... and then, who got hurt? me.... me... they?? didn't feel anything. Maybe they or even everyone besides me only thought about my foolish action of being a 'busy body'.

Caring - hurts.... is so true... and I'm totally agree with it.

But what to do? We, Christians, are call to help one another, help our neighbors, love one another, care for one another.

It's very tiring, really tired of telling them, talking to them, ask them to forgive, repeat it over and over again... without fail....

God's testing me, whether will I give up easily or not....
God's challenging me.

the right time, the right verse - Joshua 1 : 9

One month ago, the same date as today, 25 Aug. It was my worst day ever.
The day when I felt discourage.

There's problem between my classmates, both of them did not talk with each other for about two months till now. Becuase of some problems. One party(A) had tried to talk to another party but another party(B) didn't not bother to talk or even look at that party.

Because of this, I bring myself into their problem.
I'm Christian, I'll try to help. And they are my classmates!

I tried to tell (B) what I think about it, what I feel, I even told (B) that I had been in (B)'s situation before, which did actually got angry with someone. And did not forgive that person too. And I was very serious about it. Yet, (B) didn't take it seriously, he joked with it, said next year only talk with each other..

I really don't know what to do and went back to my place to continue my work.

After class, I told my other friends about it, because they could help me a little where they can advise (B) when they were out for dinner.

While talking, my another friend (C) said, "charis, don't gossip la!"

One word, just one word, "gossip" that made me 'still', 'lost', 'empty'.

I just walked off, very fast pace indeed.

While walking, I burst out into tears. I was lost, really lost.

My brother in Christ weren't there at that time and I didn't know who to go to..who to talk with..

So I just ask God, am I doing the right thing? Am I wrong?

If I didn't help, I wasn't 'helping one another'.
Then I helped, and what did I get? Others said me..

I really felt very discouraging at that moment...
No one encouraged me yet got discouraged by others.

God, why?? what You want me to do?? I've done what I can do, I've said everything that I can. Whats more?

And then, I saw the camp verse,

JOSHUA 1 : 9

"HAVE I NOT COMMANDED YOU?
BE STRONG AND COURAGEOUS.
DO NOT BE TERRIFIED;
DO NOT BE DISCOURAGED,
FOR THE LORD YOUR GOD WILL BE WITH YOU WHEREVER YOU GO."

God gave me this verse, these words at the right time.
Because of this words, I felt much better.

God sees that I'm in need of encouragement, since no one did encourage me at that time, so God did...

I know that no matter what, He will be at our side.
He'll be with me, with us, always! ALWAYS!
He comforted me when I was 'lost'.

He is an awesome God,
He's my EVERYTHING.. MY EVERYTHING~

unforgetabl moment~

Had a gathering on Monday.
It was a 'bbq night'.
we first, went to JJ to buy ingredient.
Then went back to our friend's hostel to prepare the foods.
Towards the evening, we start the fire.
When the fire was up, started eating~~
While eating, we were having fun taking some photos too..
After enjoying everything... we did the clean up and that's the end of our night..

[short & brief] lol~

some photos:


[our receipt]


[our counter]


[busy's kitchen]


[watch movie: Armagaddon]


[stacking the bricks]


[while waiting for the fire to start, we took photo]


[the foods]


[started eating]


[adding charcoals]


[pointing at the burnt lamb]


[pose for a picture]


[another pic]


[here comes the king who promo ribena]


[another king who has had a ribena bottle as his crown]


[take pic with the dustbin]


[group photo]

~best group photo~

unforgettable memory of us~

Exams over~

Done. One semester is over.
This was the worst semester throughout the four semester that I've gone through.

Most tiring semester.
Exam was the worst.. most stressful exams.
Hope the results will not be that bad.

Thank God for being by my side throughout the exam period.
He help me to overcome fear, stress, tiredness,
and also help me not to give up yet continue doing it,
though I felt tired.. but He gave me strength!

Though always I felt that I have insufficient time to study all the syllabus,
but, in the end, I manage to finish it up.
even I didn't, it didn't come out in the exam.
How awesome my God is?
Hallelujah~
Thank You Lord....
You are my everything~

what a nightmare~

*sigh*
had my English paper this morning and it's a tough paper.
thought it would be easy but ended up everyone complaint it's difficult.
what teacher taught us weren't tough but why exam is tough? why??
If I fail my English paper, I really don't know what expression should I show.
Even if I get grade B for it, I will be kinda sad.
so, if fail, really don't know how... what a nightmare~