Love Never Fails

2012-01-29T19:07:00.001+08:00

几时才可停止哭泣呢？
为什么我要那么的弱？
可以不要在掉泪了吗？
心真的超酸的。。为何？
为什么一定要哭？不哭不可以吗？
大笨蛋！！！！
有什么药可吃来疗这个伤？
为什么爱个人那么容易？
但要完全忘掉他，这么难？

2011-12-08T20:33:00.000+08:00

就只是友情，
我哭得比‘爱情’更惨..

因为，我真心要保留那份友情的..

我真心的告诉你。。。

2011-12-04T23:12:00.002+08:00

it really did hurt me.
i felt so pain, even now, i still could feel the pain when i thought of what you said and asked.

i really don't want it to spoil our friendship.
that's why, i'm so hurt.
more hurt than the 'hurt' which you are afraid you would 'hurt' me.

2011-11-18T13:03:00.000+08:00

别对我太过好，
这样让我很难残忍的对待你。。

2011-11-18T11:16:00.001+08:00

想
对你残忍，
但
我做不到.

我做不出可以伤害你的事，
所以，自己受伤害就够了。

2011-11-11T11:09:00.000+08:00

因为你，
我真的
快要疯掉了!

2011-11-05T00:04:00.001+08:00

有时候，我不是不理你，只是在等你先开口。
有时候，真的好想跟你讲话，但又很怕你嫌我烦。
有时候，我只是需要一个可以说话的人。
有时候，我真想你能懂我，即使我什么都不说。
有时候，总有种想哭的冲动，却不知道为什么。
有时候，我在乎的不是你所说的，而是那些你没有说的。

2011-11-03T22:14:00.003+08:00

When "someone" starts
not to care about that someone,
not to communicate to that someone,
less concern about that someone,

that someone should then realize
it is because "someone" is tired, is in pain,
the "someone's" heart is in pain, in brokenness.

It's really painful and hurt.
the feeling that I could feel and know.
that it makes me cry everyday when I'm thinking and missing him.

2011-10-31T20:29:00.002+08:00

because of you, I've laughed.
because of you, I've cried.
because of you, I've the happiest memories ever.
because of you, I'm hurt.
because of you, I do mind every words that came out from your mouth.
because of you, I'm 'direction-less'.

because of you,
I'm tired of
waiting,
guessing,
happy in the outside but flooding in the inside.

I want you.

2011-10-30T15:24:00.001+08:00

天空下起雨了
他撑的伞
在你的身边陪着
可是我不快乐
因为看见
他脸上的笑
是很勉强的

我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变得复杂

我很想爱他
但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答

如果再舍不得
这样下去
我们每个人
都是受害者

我
很想
爱
他

2011-06-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

我已经决定了，
过了那一天，
我和你断绝关系。

希望我可以做到。

2011-05-20T17:55:00.000+08:00

好久没找你了。
有一段日子已经没和你联络了。
那个感觉，不好受。
心里，还是深深的想着你。。

2011-04-22T23:40:00.003+08:00

时间久了，
当然是会想念的咯。。
心是想见，
但表情是很固执的说‘我不想见’!!
见了后，我的心情会是怎样的呢？
会不会又一次的再被伤到呢？

2011-04-20T20:01:00.003+08:00

不可删除，
就选择逃避吧。
唯一能做的。

因为，
我不想看到他，
我不想再看到他写的那些超甜的话，
我不想看了后，心酸酸的，
然后眼睛湿湿的。

这种感觉就是那么的痛苦。

逃避吧。。。

2011-04-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

雨都停了这片天灰什麽呢
我还记得你说我们要快乐

只是哪怕周围再多人感觉还是一个人
每当我笑了心却狠狠的哭着

给我一个理由忘记那麽爱我的你
给我一个理由放弃当时做的决定

当我走在去过的每个地方, 总会听到你那最自由的笑
当我回到一个人住的地方

我找不到理由忘记, 大雨里的别离
我找不到理由放弃, 我等你的决心

有些爱越想抽离却越更清晰
那最痛的距离是你不在身边
却在我的心里

我想你

Extract from <给我一个理由忘记>
by <A-Lin>

2011-04-12T19:36:00.002+08:00

为什么我要为你而哭？
为什么我要在意你的事？
为什么我会担心你？
为什么我还心疼你？

为什么我会喜欢上你？
喜欢一个，不喜欢我，而因该是讨厌我的人吧。

2011-04-11T22:34:00.003+08:00

“有些东西失去了，就在也回不来了。”
这让我想起，我真的不要和你做朋友了吗？
我不睬你，不想和你说话，我怕会后悔。。
但和你做朋友的话，我怕会被你的嘴伤到。

“有时候就这样静静的想一个人其实也是一种幸福，一种期待”
我想期待着。。可能奇迹会出现。。
但等待着的那段时候。。我的心已经伤得很深很深了。。。

2011-04-10T22:21:00.003+08:00

I came across these words when I read the magazine just now,

Calvin 辰亦儒说：

“ 爱就要及时，不要怕受伤；
过程一定会心痛，但跌跌撞撞中，我从不后悔。 ”

说得没错~ {过程一定会心痛} 超对！我的辰亦儒~~

2011-04-09T14:14:00.003+08:00

你玩得太过火了。。
是，我是没有权利说什么的。。
但，你也要顾下你身边人的感受。。
你玩到这么大，就算我知道你是玩玩的，
看了后，心都会痛啦。。。

我的心很痛很痛。。。
眼泪都流出来了。。。
我很想对自己说不要再看到你了。。。
我痛了，我累了。。

2011-04-08T20:11:00.001+08:00

笨蛋的我！！！！！！！！！！！！

2011-04-07T20:48:00.002+08:00

Sometimes
you love someone so much
that
it's hurt to leave it,
but you must.
Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that someone you love.
And sometimes you
let go of what you love because it hurts,
but then just sometimes...
you get it back because you don't want to let it go.

2011-04-07T20:20:00.001+08:00

我不可以为了你，而换日期。
反正，换了，你不一定会来。
算了吧~ 你每次都很合我相反的。。。
预到的啦~
不可哭~不可以哭~~
不是说过了吗？不要见到他的吗？
这样不是更好吗？没得见他~~
眼泪掉个不停了啦。。。
为什么会掉？？
因为。。。我因该是想念他了吧。。。。

2011-04-06T20:52:00.001+08:00

最近，他的名一直出现在我面前。
看了后，又是伤心又是开心的。。

说真的，那天我真的告诉我自己，
要跟他绝交，
但是，又是从那天开始，
他的名就一直的出现。。。
逃也逃不了。。
搞到我，不想伤害到他。。
宁愿让他伤我。。

2011-04-05T20:45:00.002+08:00

在我超伤心的时候，因为他弄我伤心所以我很生气，
但，一看到他的名字出现在我的FB里，
我无法再气他，
当他找我时，我就当什么时都没发生过，
就很自然的回他。。
为什么要这样呢？？
超级痛苦啦！！！！
为什么我不可以守着我的诺言。。
不要跟他做朋友呢？

2011-04-01T08:05:00.001+08:00

我们

不

要做朋友了。

2011-03-31T21:10:00.002+08:00

突然觉得很火。
很气。
我很累，
我不想再继续这样下去了。
我们不要再做朋友了。

我
终于
为你
流眼泪了

边写边掉。。。。掉个不停了。。。

2011-03-31T02:45:00.002+08:00

“叹气”

为什么总是在我想放下期待和希望时，
每件事都会突然的 360度转变。
每当我想放下，我的希望就来了。
而，希望市越来越大的！
这，我怎样能放下！？？！？！？！！

我可以不去接受那希望，
但，难得可以跟自己喜欢的人见面，
谁不要？？？

就算我口是心非，
我真的会很开心。。
就算见他几秒，我会开心的。。
就算他的口中说的话超伤我的心，
但，我能怎样？

我都不是他的人，
我只是暗恋他的人，
只是台下的 ‘观众’
而不是台上的 ‘演员’

2011-03-25T00:57:00.002+08:00

当喜欢上一个人时，
幻想力会变得超丰富的~

当那个人没回你的留言或短讯
或你找他，他没回，
我就会想，他因该时不想跟我聊天了，
或他嫌我烦~

然后呢，我就会觉得伤心。。

朋友们说， “想太多了啦”
就是因为喜欢他，所以一直都会想他的。。
不管那些事有关于到他还是没关于到他，
我都可以去想的~
>.<

2011-03-22T23:52:00.002+08:00

If
I wasn't online,
I won't be able to know that you actually aren't back yet;
and I won't be so worried about whether you are safely back or not;
and I also won't have to chance to give myself think so much;
and I won't allow myself to keep peeping whether you are off or haven't;
and I won't get to have the feeling of whether wanting to call you up;
and I won't get the chance of caring for you thou you are a guy whom can protect yourself;
and I won't cause myself to be unable to sleep well;
and I won't every seconds thinking about where will you be now;
and I won't give myself a chance of whom you will be with now when it's so late at night;
and I won't give myself a chance to think that you might have a target in heart.

just because I saw you on,
my mind didn't stop thinking...
not thinking about studies but you~

2011-03-22T01:09:00.003+08:00

从早想到现在，
我还是无法相信有那么多的‘刚巧’。

我接受不到。
从不同人的口里，
听到了一些事情。。
而全部都感觉到好像都可以联系到他们每人所说的事。。

我很想知道‘他’说的‘她’是谁..
但我又怕知道了答案而感觉心痛，伤心..
好矛盾...

朋友说，
应该是我想多了...
但，世界上，
会有那么多的 ‘刚巧’ 吗？
会吗？

我真的没有那个勇气去面对。。
我怕，我害怕，
害怕还没有得到他，他已经是属于别人的了...

2011-03-19T00:11:00.002+08:00

不能生气他因为他不知道我喜欢他。
但是，他的话很伤我的心。
因为我真的猜不到他在想什么，
猜不到他的语气。。
不知道他几时是开玩笑还是认真的。

他问我时，我又不可老实的说“是”。
因为，那一刻，他就会想，为何我会这么伤心呢？

“ 为什么，我的人生里会遇见你？
为什么，我会有那个机会跟你相遇？

不认识你多好。。
我就不会对你有好感。。好感变成有感觉~ ”

喜欢一个人，
又不可以见到他，
他又不常常跟我们出来，
少回复我。

那种德感觉是多么的痛苦。。
多么的难受。。

一直一直得等待着。。一个没可能是我的希望的希望。。

2011-03-15T22:16:00.002+08:00

When you are awfully depress, sad
you just want to have the 'someone' shoulder to cry onto..
to feel the comfort that you'll get from that 'someone'

sad that, I can't get to have his shoulder...

2011-03-13T14:00:00.004+08:00

Joke on those that can be joke on.
Not everything also can take it as a joke.
And not every time also can fool around.

You are safe because you joke to the person is me.
My mood wasn't that bad.
So I won't HATE YOU
nor be hush or cruel to you.

If not, I don't want to have you as my friend anymore
TOO CHILDISH!
Is DAMM useless to have you all as my friend.

It doesn't help be but brings anger to my life.

2011-03-12T10:30:00.001+08:00

can I know
how can we see when a guy has a feeling on the girl?

what is his reaction?
how will he react?

2011-03-07T00:46:00.000+08:00

The
worst
kind of pain
is when
you're smiling
just to stop
the tears from falling.

2011-03-05T20:20:00.002+08:00

NO.

I have to set the line..
I can't cross beyond the line..

I can't keep allowing my heart to have feeling on you..

people said how good you are,
said you are a good guy..

if I didn't take a move to catch your heart,
they said that I will regret in the future...

Should I try it or should I lock my heart?
Don't let it move forword?

=(

2011-02-26T23:04:00.002+08:00

One of the

hardest,
most painful,
soul-wrecking things you can do,

is

watch the one you love loving someone else.

2011-02-24T21:49:00.001+08:00

Each tear is one tear closer to a smile.
So cry until you smile..
that's how you get through the hard times.

2011-02-16T21:40:00.001+08:00

Sometimes
you just have to
let go
and
realize
that your dreams
will never
become
a reality.

2011-02-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

You're the one who's shoulder I want to cry on,

but you're the reason for my tears.

You're the one I want to hide behind,

but you're the one I'm hiding from.

2011-02-15T00:04:00.001+08:00

when one day you find out that
you didn't pay any attention to the person you like
or
you didn't get attracted to the person's actions

it means that
that person is no longer living in your heart anymore.

it means that
you have let that person go.
you have put that person down.

2011-02-02T20:52:00.003+08:00

When you spend lots of time with the person you had feeling on for few days,
now,
when the person is not around
or you can't meet that person for these moment,
you find yourself keep thinking about that person.

that person would just keep wondering in your mind.

makes you keep thinking about the happy moment you had together with that person,
makes you keep thinking about the greatest memories you had with that person,
makes you unable to forget what you had gone through with that person.

It's hard to forget that memorable moments.

2011-02-01T11:30:00.001+08:00

喜欢一个人，

你会想出许多借口来掩饰他的缺点

相反

恨一个人，

你也会想许多借口来抹杀他的优点

2011-01-31T00:55:00.002+08:00

Feelings are always like this.
If you keep thinking that you want it to happen,
it always won't come.

When you aren't thinking about it,
it will come... it falls from the sky.

so, don't hope so much
so that it will automatically come to you.

2011-01-24T01:03:00.003+08:00

Do Not have high Hope.
Because
in the next seconds,
it might hurts your heart deeply.

No one knows.

2011-01-03T01:03:00.002+08:00

It is hard to tell yourself that you wanna to 'forget' the person you love completely.

It will not success..

unless

you don't have any feeling on that person anymore.

2010-12-25T02:44:00.002+08:00

when you feel that you wanna to give it up.
don't want to have any hope.

but..

it will always disallowed you from doing it.

Things that you've given up hoping for,
we haunt you back..
immediately.. soon.

it always will.
I'm not sure whether it is a sad or happy things to thought of.

why does it always happen this way?

2010-12-13T20:17:00.000+08:00

There can be
no
deep disappointment
where there is
not
deep love.

waiting..

2010-12-11T20:43:00.003+08:00

"如果在你身边有那么一个人

她愿意毫不计较的为你付出默默的等你

那么请千万珍惜

她会是一直陪你走下去的那个人

她不会在半途中将你丢弃

因为她懂得珍惜与付出

她懂得那一句我等你

可是你懂吗?

为了爱你选择等你

等你是因为更能好好爱你 …

让你给她一个家

陪她走完这一生

如果正有一个等你的她

好好珍惜

能拥有对你这样痴情的她

有的人一生都不会有这种机遇…

你遇到了请不要辜负她的心

因为说出等你时她就决定

放弃等你的途中一切幸福的机遇…

或许对她来说错过的不是她的幸福

即使她对你们的结果心里没底

都一直等下去

说明她真的对你太痴心！

你也可以说她傻

但是一切都是为你傻

能等到你、和你永远在一起才是她真正的幸福

相信和这样的爱人共渡一生你也会幸福…

经常给她个消息

她就会兴奋不已

在孤独也不会觉得空虚

因为虽看不到你

心中都装满了你…"

::Tittle-我等你::

::a note read from facebook::

this statement is what my heart thinks always:

你也可以说我傻

但是一切都是为你傻的

能等到你、才是我真正的幸福（*但是，我知道应该是不可能的*）

经常给我个消息

我就会兴奋不已了

在孤独我也不会觉得空虚

因为虽看不到你

心中都装满了你…"

2010-12-06T22:35:00.002+08:00

"If you love somebody,
let them go,

for if they return,
they were always yours.

And if they don't,
they never were."

::Quote::

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
but.. Still choose to not let go.

2010-12-05T21:07:00.002+08:00

You
are
NOT
alone.

2010-11-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

"My mind
tells me to
give up,
but
my heart
won't let me."

2010-11-21T22:45:00.001+08:00

난 당신이 그리워요

2010-11-17T22:25:00.001+08:00

"When you like someone,
you like them in spite of their faults.
When you love someone,
you love them with their faults."

::Q::

2010-11-13T12:48:00.002+08:00

I love you --- it's NOT a weight you must carry around.
I love you --- it's NOT a box that holds you in.
I love you --- it's NOT a standard you have to bear.
I love you --- it's NOT a sacrifice I make.
I love you --- it's NOT a pedestal you are frozen upon.
I love you --- it's NOT an expectation of perfection.
I love you --- it's NOT my life's whole purpose (or your's).
I love you --- it's NOT to make you change.
I love you --- it's NOT even to make you love me.

I love you.
It's as pure and simple as that.

2010-11-11T20:22:00.000+08:00

看那朋友的表情,
我都过意不去，

都是我的错。。
开始怪自己了。

2010-11-10T22:32:00.002+08:00

When there's two friends facing problem against each other;

I'll not help both.

If I am to help,
I WILL HELP BOTH.

because,
'you' both are my good friend.

2010-11-05T20:13:00.001+08:00

"Love
can
touch us
one time
and
last for
a lifetime
and
never let go
till
we're gone."

2010-11-01T23:35:00.002+08:00

I'm not angry of you
just feel a bit sad on what and how you said me.

Why can't I just keep it?
Why you want to said it out to me
and seems like wanna take it away from me?
like I could not have contact or anythings or staffs relate to him.

I won't angry you
You've helped me much.
I will appreciate you.

I just wanna focus on my thoughts.

寂寞寂寞就好

2010-10-30T20:16:00.001+08:00

abstract from "寂寞寂寞就好" song
by Hebe(田馥甄)

2010-10-29T18:46:00.002+08:00

if I had to live my life without you near me
the days would all be empty
the nights would seem so long
with you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
but it never felt this strong

。。。。

I don't want to live without you
nothings gonna change my love you for you

。。。。

one thing you can be sure of
I never ask for more than your love

。。。。

the world may change my whole life through but
nothings gonna change my love for you

。。。。

just like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
you don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are

abstract from "Nothing's gonna change my love for you" song
by 方大同

2010-10-28T23:42:00.003+08:00

finally.. I'm able to eat this durian dodol~
only this brand nice to eat~
but
for now..
I only can STARE at it..
because my friend don't allow me to eat it first..
because I'm sick now~
T_T

2010-10-27T21:13:00.000+08:00

没
心
情

我
想
离
开
！！！！！

2010-10-27T20:11:00.002+08:00

[lyrics that I could use it for myself]

2010-10-25T22:22:00.003+08:00

我愛你
你愛她
她愛他

........

咦？
怎麼這世界
已經沒有人相愛

怎麼這世界
每個人都不快樂

怎麼這世界
每個人都愛別人
不愛自己

........

abstract from "Love!" song
by Hebe(田馥甄)

this lyrics, it's just so suitable for me.
[said by my friend to me]

2010-10-24T22:29:00.003+08:00

I can feel that my studies are getting worsen.
I don't feel like doing revision anymore.
Not like diploma time, so hardworking.
Everyday chasing after the syllabus.

But now, I feel that I LACK of energy.
I feel so tired, strength-less.
Due to many things that bothering me always.
Whether is big or small matters.
Worst still, those things that are NON OF MY BUSINESS
will also bugs me, disturbs me.
They surely will AIM all that NOMB problems TO ME!

How come they could blame all such SILLY things that weren't relate to me?
How come I could calm down at the end and just let it be by not fighting with them?

They just only know how to throw problems as well as blames to me.
What else did they know?

I don't blame you all,
it is because you all treat me as a stupid friend.
My fault, I'm silly.
People said is because I'm an IDIOT.
true.

2010-10-23T20:59:00.001+08:00

"Love knows no reasons,
love knows no lies.

Love defies all reasons,
love has no eyes.

But love is not blind,
love sees but doesn't mind."

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Love is not blind --
it simply enables one to see things others fail to see."

2010-10-22T22:05:00.002+08:00

thought
rather than crying always,
exercise could allow me to release stress and 'fan nao'

but didn't know
at last I'll fall sick.

no matter how hard I push and force myself
I'll still fall sick.

I'm not that strong than what I've expected.

when a person is at the maximum (highest) level,
at last will fall to the the lowest.. will fall at last..

in other words,
when a person is at the happiest moment, the another second,
it would be the saddest, painful n hurtful moment.

2010-10-21T22:46:00.004+08:00

tired day.
sick as well.
-gastric-
&
-cough-
till
-vomit-

thirsty
but friends don't allow me to drink ice drinks.

pain
hit in the forehead AND left arm by the shuttlecock.
thanks friend. T_T
pain lur...

though it is suffering,
but at least exercise allows me to release 'fan nao'
lucky I manage to 'tahan', didn't faint.. *phew*

2010-10-20T21:20:00.005+08:00

sometimes
people don't get to find their own problems
yet they still wanna be so ego to blame it to others.
I just don't get it.

worst still
blame others where they are not really sure what's going on actually.
they simply put it on others and burden them with it.
causing them to feel hurt, pain, irritated.

All these, they just FEEL it,
which isn't accurate and not true.
they think too much, I guess.

Thinking too much is not a problem.
NO WRONGS.
but WHAT MATTER is that
they never find out the TRUTH and what REALLY happened,
then started to SHOOT it to others.
BLAMING others but not yourself,
I think it need to be STOPPED.
and
START to look at the mirror
screen out your problems
before it's too late..

IF you think hurting those friends that didn't even have the motive to hurt you
is what you LOVE to do,
go on... go on...

2010-10-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

I'm in a situation now where
I was placed on a fence.

There's two side
I'll be on both side,
because both of them are close to me,
they are my important friend.

I don't know what could I do
As long as they get along well,
I'm happy enough.

Remember
I'm not siding anyone nor helping either side.
As long as it is right, I'll help
wrong, I'll disagree.

That's what I can do.

2010-10-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

-allow me only-

2010-10-16T12:27:00.002+08:00

I'm
holding it
back.

not
letting it
go.

2010-10-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

Am I qualified to be called 'A FRIEND'?

no. I don't think so.

so far, as what I know, I'm a person that allow friends to hurt & said some painful words to me, throw temper at me.

So, come find me if you are angry.
Find me if you can't find others to get angry on.

IF YOU THINK I'm wrong & you are RIGHT.
then go ahead.

I care for friend.
IF
hurt me = you happy.
(as long as u care for urself & not care bout others feeling, not only me, is EVERYONE AROUND YOU)

THEN COME!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-10-14T17:05:00.003+08:00

烦了，
伤了，
痛了，
哭了，
累了，
睡了，
醒了，
好了，

然后，

又重复回。。。

烦了，
伤了，
痛了，
哭了，
累了，
睡了，
醒了，
好了。。。

永远都是这样的。。。

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_day 43_
@new blog

2010-10-14T00:52:00.001+08:00

sitting in front of the computer..

crying non-stop..

can't stop...

cry and cry and cry~~

2010-10-09T23:53:00.002+08:00

Even if its only A FEW seconds..
I would be satisfied.

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_day 38_
@new blog

2010-10-06T23:28:00.002+08:00

"Someday,
when I'm awfully low,
and the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you,
and the way you look tonight."

:Q:

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Missed ::u::_day 35_
wrote at new blog

2010-10-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

today isn't a good day...
I was 'raining the whole day today..
because of this thing, that thing, those things, these things...
many things...

friends talked to me.. gave me advices and opinion..

Thanks for all that words u told me in lecture, Rainnee..

Thanks for that sentences too "...there's pros and cons....." & ur status, Ranon..

Thanks for your words.. though it is a little harsh that makes me cry again, but it is straight forward.. kinda effective, Nickson..

Thanks all friends for the comforts and cheers for me..

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_day 34_
@new blog

2010-10-02T15:47:00.002+08:00

mentally hurt.
-1-10-10-
unrecoverable? I guess... yes..

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_day 31_
@new blog

2010-09-30T20:53:00.001+08:00

could not change it..

change what?

the PAST..

it's past..

whatever happened or have not happened..
have to accept it.. & take it..

can't changed it.. NEVER EVER could I do so..

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_day 29_
@new blog

2010-09-29T23:25:00.001+08:00

"Love from one side
hurts,
but love from two sides
heals."

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_day 28_
@new blog

2010-09-24T13:52:00.000+08:00

一点点想哭泣
一点点想着你

:a sentence abstract from the song "你"
by 林依晨:

2010-09-23T11:25:00.004+08:00

"It takes a minute to have a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone,
and a day to love someone...
but
it takes a lifetime to FORGET someone."

:quote:

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_day 22_
@new blog

2010-09-22T18:47:00.002+08:00

不要把事情抓到太紧，
放开，
不要想了又想
那样辛苦的是你，
想开心事吧，
丢掉伤心，
留下美好回忆，
让自己活得开心

:words from rainnee wen:

I started to rain after I read this.
让自己活得开心

what's happiness & what's sadness,
I really not sure about it..

too many deep wounds inside me..
First time in my life I drop so deeply
till I don't know how to get up.
what causes it... too many...seriously.

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_day 21_
@new blog

2010-09-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

uncertainty

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_day 19_
@new blog

2010-09-19T23:05:00.003+08:00

watched shows & saw this:

“为了自己，而伤害到别人，是很卑鄙的一件事。”

if that is a mean thing to do, then what about me doing the other way round always,
which is this:

"because of others, I choose to be hurt,
allow others to hurt me because I care others"

by doing this, the words to describe me is far more than just 'mean'(卑鄙), it would be stupid, idiot, dumb, 'dai sei', sendiri cari pasal bcz care bout other things.

I really don't know what to do.. which to choose... I tell myself that the 2nd option is better but what I get those discouraging words..

I've been not the real me for this year. starting from Jan till now.
I can't find back myself.

Brother Nicholas PY, I'm a failure sister.
Thank you for praying for me and help me...
what I can said,
brother, is just... thank you for the prayers.

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_day 18_
@new blog

2010-09-18T15:55:00.005+08:00

:thoughts that bother me:
I'm starting to fall in the hatred trap.
I don't want to hate a single person.
But when angers come, hatred will start to enter the soul.
So, I choose to CRY. Cry rather than anger.
After crying I'll feel calm... until people cause me to angry again, I'll cry again..

It's been the 9th months after the 'disaster' happened to me.
My life though out these NINE months was a tragedy..
sad things keep occurring continuously over these nine months.
when can these things leave me? leave my life? come find me once in a while....

:my worDs2U:
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
but, what I want is that u could allow me to find u when I'm sad..
but I worried that u won't reply me..
could u allow to borrow me ur shoulder when I'm crying?
though I know you try not to give me much hope... but that's what I want...
I, u, we could be a good close friend...
I bet u know the 'u' I'm referring to... to that person I've feeling on.
don't stay too far from kl... come back to where u recently stay...
I hope u could c this but I guess u won't get to see this short 8 sentences...
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

2010-09-16T22:42:00.004+08:00

"...作不成的爱人
变成最好朋友..."

abstract from "不作你的朋友" S.H.E

don't have the chance2be in relationship with u... therefore, I hope to be ur close friend, very very close indeed.. a best close friend.....
a brother of mine.... can I?

2010-09-15T09:27:00.003+08:00

"Love
came slow and surefooted
and was made of equal measures of comfort and respect.
A plain girl wouldn't fall in love,
she'd sort of glance down and realize she was mired in it.
A plain girl knew she loved someone when
she looked out ten years from now
and saw that same boy standing beside her,
his hand on the small of her back."

from the novel "Plain Truth"
by Jodi Picoult

2010-09-14T16:01:00.003+08:00

"I dropped
a tear
in the ocean.

The day you find it
is the day
I will stop missing you."

:Q:

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Missed ::u::_day 13_
wrote at new blog

2010-09-13T17:59:00.006+08:00

"My mind
tells me to
give up,
but
my heart
won't let me."

:Q:

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Missed ::u::_day 12_
wrote at new blog

2010-09-11T20:57:00.000+08:00

Missed ::u::_day 10_
wrote at new blog

2010-09-11T12:00:00.002+08:00

"Love
is like
quicksand--
the deeper you fall in,
the harder it is to get out."

:Q:

2010-09-10T20:28:00.003+08:00

"Love
is when you
wake up
thinking of
no one else
but,
that person!"

:Q:

2010-09-09T22:52:00.001+08:00

cried.... can't stop my tears from dropping..

2010-09-09T21:59:00.005+08:00

Ignorance..

Missed ::u::_day 8_
wrote at new blog.

Missed ::u::_day 6_

2010-09-07T21:45:00.002+08:00

If I never met you
I wouldn't like you;

If I didn't like you
I wouldn't love you;

If I didn't love you
I wouldn't miss you;

BUT
I DID I DO & I WILL.

2010-09-06T12:46:00.004+08:00

I can't get rid of it.. that feeling..

2010-09-04T20:48:00.001+08:00

Silent reply.